Alzeheimers
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
The next phase...
Nine years I cared for Mom and Dad everyday. In 2009 we moved them into my home with a private room and sitting room. They were happy there for two years together until Dad passed away in 2012. Mom was good there until her Alzheimer's progressed to the point she wouldn't sleep and required 24 hour nursing. So on March 20th she fell and had a tramatic brain injury. After a brief hospital stay she came home with Hospice of the Valley support. I cared for her as long as I could but once my health was in jeopardy it was time for her to go where she could get 24 hour nursing care. So she is now at GlenCroft Care Facility. I visit nearly everyday.
My life has entered a new phase. Now I care for other people's mothers as a in home caregiver. I'm working 40-50 hours a week as a caregiver. Plus I am working another 20 hours as a Public Relations rep.
My life has entered a new phase. Now I care for other people's mothers as a in home caregiver. I'm working 40-50 hours a week as a caregiver. Plus I am working another 20 hours as a Public Relations rep.
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Christmas
My daughter was able to visit from California the week
before Christmas. It was nice because our holiday time together was mostly just
the two of us. Mom was there but very quiet and still confused as to who Julie
was and why was she here. Julie’s very good at calming mom and letting her know
she’s someone who loves her and that is all that matters.
When Christmas Eve rolled around mom and I went to mass at 4
PM and had our usual seats in the back of the church. It was crowded and there
was an overflow mass in the hall. But we managed and enjoyed the decorations
and the enthusiasm of the children. Mom seems to spot every baby and take joy
from watching them from afar.
But again it was a bittersweet holiday for me without daddy.
Mom doesn’t seem to remember him much anymore. If you do try to explain the
reality of the situation, she gets angry and accuses you of being mean. I guess
at this stage it’s best to go with the flow and live in her fantasy world.
After all, it is Christmas, talk about Santa to every child. So let the magic
and fantasy Christmas fill our hearts with joy and happiness. And let there be
peace on earth.
Thanksgiving
So for that reason I kept my Thanksgiving plans very simple.
I roasted turkey, made mashed potatoes, peas and bread. I told anyone coming
over to bring more to fill in around the basic dinner. My niece Stephanie made
a bread pudding with Rum and raisins that was delicious. There seem to be
enough food for everyone.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Another Stage Has Begun Wednesday November 7, 2012
Another
Stage Has Begun Wednesday
November 7, 2012
The last few days we have advanced to another stage of
this disease. Mom is seeing ghosts or other people everywhere all the time. And
she often doesn’t know me and is afraid of me. Her language skills are diminishing
with slurred and irrational thoughts. Delusions are a constant. A couple of
weeks ago she pulled that stunt of trying to jump out of the moving car. She did
it again today. We went to the post office and she was fine with waiting in the
car as I ran in to the post office to drop off a package and check my mail box.
We do this all the time. But when I returned and started to back out she
insisted there was another woman in the post office we needed to wait for and
she would not leave until the other woman got in the car. I started to back out
and Mom unhooked her seat belt opened her door and had a leg out as I was
starting to pull forward. I stopped quick and almost smashed her leg in the door.
I yelled for her to get back in until I parked. I re-parked and we had a
screaming match as I was so scared she could have been hurt. She insisted there
was the other woman in the post office so I said okay let’s go get her. I got
her out and we went all through the post office looking for someone who didn’t
exist. Finally she was convinced and we returned to the car. But again she didn’t
want to go and this time I called my sister who was waiting for us to pick her
up. My niece talked to Mom and convinced her to come to their house. I don’t
know why she will believe everyone else but not me. I think we have a loss of
faith that I am her caregiver and she doesn’t want me to tell her what to do
anymore. Maybe I need to call in someone else for her to take a vacation from
me. But who?
We went to the bank and Wal-mart with my sister without
incident. But when we got home my friend Larry and a worker were building
bookshelves in the living room. They had power tools including saws out. Mom
seemed to get in the way every time she moved. We tried to get her sitting
safely in a chair but she wanted to do the opposite of anything we asked. I
yelled at her loudly when she reached to pick up a power saw by the blade! It
was an extremely dangerous move and she was angry at me yelling at her like a
child – yet she was acting like a child doing dangerous things. My heart was
pounding. Even when I yelled at her she continued to try to play with the hot
power tools. I physically had to grab her away from the danger.
When I think back her dangerous actions started early in
the day today. I went upstairs and got dressed and had a few envelopes to
address before we left. When I looked up she had climbed the stairs and was
walking toward me. She had a smarty pants grin on her face knowing she wasn’t
allowed upstairs and seemed to expect me to react. So instead I told her to sit
down and help me with my work. I had her sealing envelopes and rubber banding
the stacks. Then I took her into my room as I changed and even put her at my
makeup chair to do her chin whisker tweezing and moisturizing and lipstick. As
we went down the stairs one at a time I pointed out how dangerous it was for
her to climb the stairs alone. And I made a point of how her hip hurt after.
She insisted it didn’t hurt. It’s all about making me wrong at every comment.
Again I think I need to give her a break from me. I just need to figure out how
to do it. I need to find a caregiver to move in for a bit. I put it out to the
universe to bring someone to me.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Home all day Saturday October 27, 2012
It’s like she wants to be going somewhere all the time.
She wanted to go to school when she woke up and dressed in the oddest
combination of clothes you could imagine. This is a woman who always wore
coordinated and matched outfits totally appropriate for the occasion. I took
her in and changed into stay home clothes because I told her, “No school on
Saturday.” I took her into the backyard to work on watering plants and watching
me clean the pool, do weeding and planting. She enjoys sitting in the sun. She
scares me getting too close to the edge of the pool. So I steer her toward a
chair where she can watch me safely. She’s fine watching me work.
As soon as we go into the house she wants to go home
again. Every day, a hundred times a day, we go through the “I’m going home now,”
routine. Sometimes I can use distraction, “let’s do this first…” or I say “I
wish you would stay with me because I will miss you.” Often I follow her down
the driveway and she runs out of energy and comes back. Today I drove her around
the neighborhood until she confessed she didn’t know where to go to get home.
So we returned home I give her a Zanax and she sleeps all afternoon in front of
the tv. Some days we go through extreme
range of emotions and have even been to the Urgent Care with blood pressure off
the charts. But an hour later all is forgotten and back to the beginning again.
Friday, October 26, 2012
Haircut Friday October 26, 2012
Trudy has been doing Mom’s hair for many years and she
does an excellent job. Each time it is cut it comes in whiter and whiter.
Usually I sit and talk to Trudy while she is working on Mom’s hair, but today I
had another stylist cut my hair right next to Mom and Trudy. I could hear the
stories Mom was telling Trudy about how she and Daddy were traveling and going
places. This was stimulated by Trudy saying she was going to Mexico on
vacation. Mom went on and on weaving intricate yet unfeasible stories based on
all of her travels in the past. One minute in Las Vegas, then LA, then in
Maine. It made me wonder how that mind of her works. It’s all in there she just
can’t put it together correctly. Trudy knows and can see how far Mom has
slipped into another world. She takes extra time and gives Mom special
attention. I tipped her a little extra.
We went to the bank to try and get my sister’s loan
processed. The paperwork wasn’t ready yet.
My sister came home with us to watch Mom while I went to
pick up a new TV with a friend. While I was gone my sister says Mom tried to
leave to go home at least four times. She would walk with her and guide her
back home. The afternoon Zanax puts her to sleep on the sofa and she is in bed
by 7pm.
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