Christmas

My daughter was able to visit from California the week before Christmas. It was nice because our holiday time together was mostly just the two of us. Mom was there but very quiet and still confused as to who Julie was and why was she here. Julie’s very good at calming mom and letting her know she’s someone who loves her and that is all that matters.

When Christmas Eve rolled around mom and I went to mass at 4 PM and had our usual seats in the back of the church. It was crowded and there was an overflow mass in the hall. But we managed and enjoyed the decorations and the enthusiasm of the children. Mom seems to spot every baby and take joy from watching them from afar.

But again it was a bittersweet holiday for me without daddy. Mom doesn’t seem to remember him much anymore. If you do try to explain the reality of the situation, she gets angry and accuses you of being mean. I guess at this stage it’s best to go with the flow and live in her fantasy world. After all, it is Christmas, talk about Santa to every child. So let the magic and fantasy Christmas fill our hearts with joy and happiness. And let there be peace on earth.